Finally had the apples to do it...

[InkedMuttley]

You will all no doubt remember my "Situation" well last night I finally had the apples to tell her and to be honest I'm really f*cked off now.

My message: Nommie I need to say something and I think this is the only way I can do it. You obviously know I like you, you'd be daft if you didn't realise that by now...I don't know how exactly to say it but for months now I have tried to hide my feelings I really really like you and I know that I'm probably not your type, not the best looking and to be honest can be a bit of a dick etc but one thing I am is an honest and genuine person, what you see is what you get with me. I'm pretty much terrified even writing this but it needs to be put out there.

What I'm asking is will you go out with me? I'm really nervous about entering into a relationship but feel that this is the right time and to be honest I'd like to move on with you, so what do you say...Could we give it a go? If it doesn't work out return to being friends?

Her message back: Okay, this is freaky as I've just woken up and I remember the dream and it was a bit of a fantasy dream like elves and stuff ha but you were in it and you did ask me to date you.
So this is like deja vu. - how weird? >.<

I know that you are an honest person and genuine. I know that all too well hence why I love to spend time with you and I can tell you absolutely anything. You really are one of the most amazing people I have every known. There is no doubt about it.

If I'm honest, I'm not looking to date right now due to taking a turn for the worse with the anxiety and depression and I can honestly say that I am absolutely petrified of dating again.
I did think that maybe a new relationship would help with the medical stuff but after having a long conversation with my gay friend Blacky, I'm not too sure it would.

I'm also worried about dating again because, as you know, Dave and I are very close, in fact I class him as my brother, but I do know how he feels. And I really don't want to hurt him, especially with him being a big ball of anxiety and depression like us. So I'm a bit scared that he'll go down hill if I dated now thus hurting him.
Which also applies to you. If Johnny Depp came along and wanted to sweep me off my feet, I'd say no. You and Dave mean so much more to me than my lust for Johnny Depp
My main interests are getting you and Dave onto a stable level of health again.

However, I will say, let's get you, myself and Dave onto a stable level with anxiety/depression etc... and then we'll see how it all pans out if that's okay-ish?
As for the here and now, we shall continue being a weird married couple and nothing will be awkward at all.

Cock tease/just trying to get her own way/not wanting to flat out reject me (READ: Backup plan)

Any hints?

To be honest I aint distraught or broke up about it but I am disappointed. Now Sophie just wants to smash her skull in with a rusty pan...