22-08-2015, 11:03 AM
Thanks Pug (forgotten your name, sorry 
), yeah I am getting hours or even days of very deep darkness again unfortunately. It's not a dingy flat (much nicer than my bedroom was at home, very light, no damp, plus the suns in the room all day through the French doors) and it is sunny here atm...unfortunately I have to admit defeat there and claim 'depression' (as much as I hate the word) as it's clearly mental rather than external influences causing that.
I don't have a playstation...do have an Xbox but not even switched it on since moving, more of a winter thing when the weathers crap lol, but I don't spend all day glued to it anyway. You're right though, a lot of people do 'chose' (just my observation without knowing their circumstances) to waste their time with games or alcohol or whatever when I genuinely want to work.
I try not to spend all day inside, I do usually go out at least once a day no matter how bad I feel, even if it's just a walk around the block (takes about an hour) or a drive somewhere if my bowels aren't safe enough for a walk lol. I only plug the laptop in during cheap electric (2-5pm during the day) which obviously limits me to battery alone so when it dies it forces me out haha.
I can't seem to meet people though, most of the places I go am surrounded by people but just can't seem to interact with them which makes me feel even lonlier tbh, sounds daft I know but it's one thing that does get me down, really thought I'd have found some fwends that aren't hundreds of miles of cable away on the other side of a screen but don't know how or what to do for that. Anyone with young kids readin this make sure they know what to do when they're still young! 
I do try and stay positive, as you know it's not easy though lol.
), yeah I am getting hours or even days of very deep darkness again unfortunately. It's not a dingy flat (much nicer than my bedroom was at home, very light, no damp, plus the suns in the room all day through the French doors) and it is sunny here atm...unfortunately I have to admit defeat there and claim 'depression' (as much as I hate the word) as it's clearly mental rather than external influences causing that. I don't have a playstation...do have an Xbox but not even switched it on since moving, more of a winter thing when the weathers crap lol, but I don't spend all day glued to it anyway. You're right though, a lot of people do 'chose' (just my observation without knowing their circumstances) to waste their time with games or alcohol or whatever when I genuinely want to work.
I try not to spend all day inside, I do usually go out at least once a day no matter how bad I feel, even if it's just a walk around the block (takes about an hour) or a drive somewhere if my bowels aren't safe enough for a walk lol. I only plug the laptop in during cheap electric (2-5pm during the day) which obviously limits me to battery alone so when it dies it forces me out haha.
I can't seem to meet people though, most of the places I go am surrounded by people but just can't seem to interact with them which makes me feel even lonlier tbh, sounds daft I know but it's one thing that does get me down, really thought I'd have found some fwends that aren't hundreds of miles of cable away on the other side of a screen but don't know how or what to do for that. Anyone with young kids readin this make sure they know what to do when they're still young! I do try and stay positive, as you know it's not easy though lol.