Job Hunt and Health Issues

[Toms306]

These stories sound horrific and are why I'd never eat a takeaway or get drunk and tbh would prefer never to have to eat again. It's not about embarrassment any more (I embarrass myself all the time anyway, never gonna see the people again so don't care), I just can't stand getting ill, I can just about cope with shits at home after having no choice in the matter from roughly the start of high school, but I still can't away from home, and I'd rather die than have anything worse than shits... It's obviously inevitable that at some point it will happen, I will get ill, I can't cope with knowing that, haven't been able to ever tbh. I've always avoided anything with even a remote risk of making me unwell. Unfortunately food can't be avoided altogether, but I go through hell and many rituals just to eat dinner, usually have it burnt to a crisp...still if I don't burn my tongue on it I worry it's not cooked...even after that I'll worry about it all night....doesn't help that guts are on the move all night as well...

But again, that's only one fairly small part of everything.