03-08-2015, 08:44 PM
Cheers Mark, it seems you're pretty unlucky with health, more so than me lol!
Totally honest, no I haven't been to the GP about this recently. I haven't even joined a new surgery since moving, it doesn't help that my local is listed as one of the worst surgeries with less than 50% recommending it, compared to around 85% recommending the majority on the NHS site. I have various problems, both physical and mental, most of which are kept to myself and not on here, that I really need pro help with and should've done many years ago. But it's got past the point where it's overwhelmed me and I can't work out which should be prioritised...I also have a massive fear/phobia of anything medical which puts me off going, even being in the waiting room is more than I can deal with.
The docs wouldn't diagnose me with IBS without doing blood tests...and there's no f*cking way I'm being poked with a needle!! I also can't take any meds because the OCD won't allow me to risk contaminating myself and the potential side effects of that. I know that probably all sounds daft to most people lol! So really I just end up going round in circles, knowing I can't be helped while my brain is creating certain barriers...something does need to be done...but how, what and when is the question...and one which I just can't answer atm. I honestly thought when I'd moved out I'd be able to sort my health issues a bit easier, but that hasn't happened yet. Though that said, moving has massively changed my overall mood, while I'm still getting frequent anxiety, I'm finding it much easier to deal with and I'm not getting the real deep depression with it that I was before, I'd had that since school! Just goes to show the difference that environment/surroundings can make without any medical input.
As for the food diary, I have tried it before but never found anything that seemed to definitely cause me problems, though I do avoid a few things that I believe caused me issues in the past. I can eat the same thing twice in a week and be fine the first time but really suffer the next for example. It seems the biggest triggers for me are anticipating stress (when I've planned something 'stressful' to do, which is more or less every day now lol) and eating on an empty stomach after having an earlier 'bowel evacuation'. Its also partly down to the OCD, as daft as it sounds I've had a fear of sh*tting myself in public for a long while and forced myself to 'clear out' every day before leaving for school, I don't know whether years of doing that caused any long term issues, but I still do it now, I cant leave until I feel empty, so in a way I kinda like getting an episode first thing in the morning.
Sorry that's turned into a bit of an essay, but it's things Ive been thinking about constantly without an outlet lol.
Totally honest, no I haven't been to the GP about this recently. I haven't even joined a new surgery since moving, it doesn't help that my local is listed as one of the worst surgeries with less than 50% recommending it, compared to around 85% recommending the majority on the NHS site. I have various problems, both physical and mental, most of which are kept to myself and not on here, that I really need pro help with and should've done many years ago. But it's got past the point where it's overwhelmed me and I can't work out which should be prioritised...I also have a massive fear/phobia of anything medical which puts me off going, even being in the waiting room is more than I can deal with.
The docs wouldn't diagnose me with IBS without doing blood tests...and there's no f*cking way I'm being poked with a needle!! I also can't take any meds because the OCD won't allow me to risk contaminating myself and the potential side effects of that. I know that probably all sounds daft to most people lol! So really I just end up going round in circles, knowing I can't be helped while my brain is creating certain barriers...something does need to be done...but how, what and when is the question...and one which I just can't answer atm. I honestly thought when I'd moved out I'd be able to sort my health issues a bit easier, but that hasn't happened yet. Though that said, moving has massively changed my overall mood, while I'm still getting frequent anxiety, I'm finding it much easier to deal with and I'm not getting the real deep depression with it that I was before, I'd had that since school! Just goes to show the difference that environment/surroundings can make without any medical input.
As for the food diary, I have tried it before but never found anything that seemed to definitely cause me problems, though I do avoid a few things that I believe caused me issues in the past. I can eat the same thing twice in a week and be fine the first time but really suffer the next for example. It seems the biggest triggers for me are anticipating stress (when I've planned something 'stressful' to do, which is more or less every day now lol) and eating on an empty stomach after having an earlier 'bowel evacuation'. Its also partly down to the OCD, as daft as it sounds I've had a fear of sh*tting myself in public for a long while and forced myself to 'clear out' every day before leaving for school, I don't know whether years of doing that caused any long term issues, but I still do it now, I cant leave until I feel empty, so in a way I kinda like getting an episode first thing in the morning.
Sorry that's turned into a bit of an essay, but it's things Ive been thinking about constantly without an outlet lol.