14-01-2015, 06:12 PM
Hello!
So most of you know me...and know I have a few faults...well many, but a few major ones.
Anyway, I'm still in the same catch 22 that I have been for the last few years now, although some things have changed for the worse in that time unfortunately. I try not to let it come across on here usually as I don't want to spread negativity, but hoping someone can offer advice/help on this!
Short story is I have big problems with anxiety and OCD, and IBS which is linked to those, as well as a few other small problems. Now I KNOW how to sort those out, or reduce them to a reasonable level at least. It'll be a long, slow process and I need a solid routine, a change of diet, space/time to relax and then a steady job.
Problem is I live in a house of people that aren't very understanding, particularly of contamination which is the main part of my OCD, and more importantly don't have routines which makes it impossible for me to have one, that also stops me changing diet as I don't get much chance to eat in a 'clean' environment, and when I do its often quick, convenience rubbish which aggravates the IBS anyway. I also don't ever feel relaxed/safe/calm in my room with everyone about and very rarely have the house to myself now. Its like I'm always on 'high alert' and fighting a losing battle with it! Now I can work on the OCD, but its a long slow process, and no progress at all is being made in my current situation. Only progress being made is going out, but only very briefly, and more often than not that fails due to external influences from home as well.
So the catch 22 is I need to move out in order to get better - but I need money in order to move out, which is extremely difficult in my circumstances. ARGH!
There's no chance of me doing a normal job from here, and I've accepted that. What I need is an idea of something different/unusual to make money (legally!). I've tried my hand at a few things over the years and nothing has really worked out. Main reasons are:
-I'm a terrible salesman, I couldn't sell coats to eskimos let alone ice.
-I cant work under pressure without constant f*ckups
-I don't have much space, a quarter of a garage and my bedroom, that's it, driveway is also off limits for 95% of the time now.
-I don't really have any skills. I have a few GCSEs, a C&G in electrics and a BTEC ND in Motor Vehicle, and I suppose customer handling skills from my supermarket job
-I get very little time around trying to do normal things - I'm left with about 3 hours in the afternoon between 1-4 to do everything inc shopping, helping Nan, car stuff and any 'work' that needs doing, I force myself out at this point most days so take an hour round trip off that if I have to go to town. This is the time I would try and do the 'new' occupation
-IBS uses up some of that time, and sometimes takes away entire days which is frustrating, its not just sh*ts but cramps, reflux etc so Imodium and the like isn't helpful. After an IBS episode I lack energy for any sort of manual labour, though I still attempt it.
-Weekends are near impossible and ignored for this
-I cant eat or use the loo out, which makes long times out difficult
-I'm scared by the tax man and the ads on the radio about getting caught taking cash, and have literally no idea about income tax
-Id rather be told what to do than have to make my own decisions, I'm more of a sheep than a shepherd
Now I'm obviously not overly employable, and couldn't even do a PT job in the current circumstances, which is worse than about 2 years ago, I should add I was working back in 2010, but couldn't cope with it and eventually just completely failed, couldn't face going in and had to resign without even working my notice, so I'd get a great reference from there lol. The gov't aren't any help, I'm obviously not eligible for JSA, and I'm not 'ill' enough to claim ESA. So I need another source of income, and I've been thinking about it for months and just cant think of anything that I'll be able to do and earn enough money, so if anyone on here has an idea, no matter how ridiculous it may be I'd be very interested to hear it! You can PM me if it's something you'd rather not broadcast publicly!
On another note, and a long shot, if anyone fancies a house share with a whiny control freak that spends several hours a day in the toilet but doesn't mind housework and fixing cars let me know. Ideal applicant would be someone out all day, that is naturally tidy/clean, doesn't expect constant talking and has amazingly quick broadband. 
But seriously, if you've read this far, well done lol. I will repay you with rep or random 306 parts for any good ideas...maybe more for an idea that gets me the f*ck out of this situation.
Cheers
Tom
So most of you know me...and know I have a few faults...well many, but a few major ones.
Anyway, I'm still in the same catch 22 that I have been for the last few years now, although some things have changed for the worse in that time unfortunately. I try not to let it come across on here usually as I don't want to spread negativity, but hoping someone can offer advice/help on this!
Short story is I have big problems with anxiety and OCD, and IBS which is linked to those, as well as a few other small problems. Now I KNOW how to sort those out, or reduce them to a reasonable level at least. It'll be a long, slow process and I need a solid routine, a change of diet, space/time to relax and then a steady job.
Problem is I live in a house of people that aren't very understanding, particularly of contamination which is the main part of my OCD, and more importantly don't have routines which makes it impossible for me to have one, that also stops me changing diet as I don't get much chance to eat in a 'clean' environment, and when I do its often quick, convenience rubbish which aggravates the IBS anyway. I also don't ever feel relaxed/safe/calm in my room with everyone about and very rarely have the house to myself now. Its like I'm always on 'high alert' and fighting a losing battle with it! Now I can work on the OCD, but its a long slow process, and no progress at all is being made in my current situation. Only progress being made is going out, but only very briefly, and more often than not that fails due to external influences from home as well.
So the catch 22 is I need to move out in order to get better - but I need money in order to move out, which is extremely difficult in my circumstances. ARGH!
There's no chance of me doing a normal job from here, and I've accepted that. What I need is an idea of something different/unusual to make money (legally!). I've tried my hand at a few things over the years and nothing has really worked out. Main reasons are:
-I'm a terrible salesman, I couldn't sell coats to eskimos let alone ice.
-I cant work under pressure without constant f*ckups
-I don't have much space, a quarter of a garage and my bedroom, that's it, driveway is also off limits for 95% of the time now.
-I don't really have any skills. I have a few GCSEs, a C&G in electrics and a BTEC ND in Motor Vehicle, and I suppose customer handling skills from my supermarket job
-I get very little time around trying to do normal things - I'm left with about 3 hours in the afternoon between 1-4 to do everything inc shopping, helping Nan, car stuff and any 'work' that needs doing, I force myself out at this point most days so take an hour round trip off that if I have to go to town. This is the time I would try and do the 'new' occupation
-IBS uses up some of that time, and sometimes takes away entire days which is frustrating, its not just sh*ts but cramps, reflux etc so Imodium and the like isn't helpful. After an IBS episode I lack energy for any sort of manual labour, though I still attempt it.
-Weekends are near impossible and ignored for this
-I cant eat or use the loo out, which makes long times out difficult
-I'm scared by the tax man and the ads on the radio about getting caught taking cash, and have literally no idea about income tax
-Id rather be told what to do than have to make my own decisions, I'm more of a sheep than a shepherd
Now I'm obviously not overly employable, and couldn't even do a PT job in the current circumstances, which is worse than about 2 years ago, I should add I was working back in 2010, but couldn't cope with it and eventually just completely failed, couldn't face going in and had to resign without even working my notice, so I'd get a great reference from there lol. The gov't aren't any help, I'm obviously not eligible for JSA, and I'm not 'ill' enough to claim ESA. So I need another source of income, and I've been thinking about it for months and just cant think of anything that I'll be able to do and earn enough money, so if anyone on here has an idea, no matter how ridiculous it may be I'd be very interested to hear it! You can PM me if it's something you'd rather not broadcast publicly!
On another note, and a long shot, if anyone fancies a house share with a whiny control freak that spends several hours a day in the toilet but doesn't mind housework and fixing cars let me know.
Ideal applicant would be someone out all day, that is naturally tidy/clean, doesn't expect constant talking and has amazingly quick broadband. But seriously, if you've read this far, well done lol. I will repay you with rep or random 306 parts for any good ideas...maybe more for an idea that gets me the f*ck out of this situation.
Cheers
Tom