Phobias?

[Toms306]

Things do always seem scarier at night don't they, not sure why, theres just as likely to be an axe weilding maniac burglar hiding by your door in the middle of the day! I do have a horrible recurring dream though where I get broken into through an unlocked door in my house in the dark......its a big black guy with a knife and I panic and cant breath but before anything actually happens I wake up a pool of what I hope is sweat..........wish my brain would just f*ck off at night, its those kind of dreams that put more fear into things!

Also, I've always been scared of heights and lifts (I mean what happens if a lift breaks...nope I'll take the stairs unless theres literally no choice!) however I did do the walk of 'faith' back in 2004 lol.



Even went up to the open bit at the top...






However theres no f*cking way I'd be there today! And this is whats getting to me really, that I know I've always been a 'worrier', my parents and Nans are so it's not really a surprise, but I still used to do things with a good push up the arse. Then I kinda got old enough to say 'no' as it was easier to avoid things. But I've realised literally this week after some research and a very good book on the subject that avoidance is the thing that makes the fear stronger! I guess I knew this before as I was going to town every day becuase missing a day made the next day a lot worse (it'd been a week before yesterday, was almost impossible, was genuinely surprised how quick it happens now) but I never realised how bad it'd got until it was too late I guess.

I'm really hoping that the hightened phobias of pretty much everything are made worse by the constant anxiety I'm under at the moment......and 'hoping' that if I could move out and relax a bit and try and let my mind 'fix' itself a bit (you know, clean up the registery, fix bad secotors and defrag) that things would get easier again. I know i'll always worry about stuff, and as you say, the worst does usually happen to some people (you and I are obviously prone to this!) but I want to still be able to do things, even if I am scared of them.