Time for a Fresh Start - Updated Page 3, Jan 2013

[Toms306]

Actually I feel worse now she knows. It's like I've finally admitted defeat I guess. But I also feel bad that I've given her more stuff to worry about now. Oh well, cant be un-said now so just gotta hope that was the right thing to do.

There you go lad! First step sorted. She knows more about your situation, did she mention anything about trying to help you?

You've done good, you could of coward away from your mum and not dont anything... But you didn't you told her what was needed.

Things will hopefully get easier dude . To back to doctors ask your mum to come with you to offer support . Not to hold your hand. .


Want to see you at FCS this year now!
Just don't bring a vag!

Lol, well as I said theres not really anything she can do to help. She managed to turn it onto herself instead - 'I've got enough to worry about with this op without having to worry about you as well'. And 'well now I dont know what to do, I thought of something nice to get for your birthday but you may not like it now' Females seem to be good at that though, I was expecting it tbh. Just said that I'd worry about myself and she could worry about herself (apparently not an option) and to just save her money instead of getting whatever it was she was looking at for my bday, had a horrible feeling it was a driving experience or something like that so I'd have hated it anyway, and wouldnt want to seem ungreatful.

She did keep asking what I was gonna do about the problems though, but obviously I didn't have an answer as I still don't know. What I did say was the it will take time to sort out and that there isnt a magic cure.

I certainly dont want her at the doc's with me though!!

I won't be coming to FCS.

well done tom you may not think it but that's a big step.

I had to do behaviour therapy by myself and i know it's way easier said then done but always try to look for the positive instead of focusing on the negatives. since i've started doing that life is so much easier trust me. I suffer with severe depression so just that way of things helps with that and also eases my anxiety which funnily enough i don't get when i'm djing work that out lol.

Struggling to find any positives at all now if Im honest, no matter how much i look for them.

Also I can totally relate to that tbh, it's doing something that you like and keeping your mind occupied. I'm the same with fixing cars (well attempting to...). It's something to get immersed in so your brain forgets it should be making you worry about stuff. But then it gets to a point where you stop for whatever reason and you think 'hmm, I haven't been anxious for a few hours now'...then it hits!