Opinions...

[InkedMuttley]

Just over 2 yrs ago i nearly killed myself but bottled it at the last moment cos I'm such a fcuking coward.

I can relate to that...I've bottled it twice this year alone. And the way I tried it really was f*cking cowardly!

My main problem is she doesn't like being told she's beautiful or anything else etc, she doesn't like it if you just go in for the kill either. That is my main dilemma, I mean I can string a sentence together that sums up how wonderful she is and how I'd love for her to be a part of my life etc but as I say she doesn't go for that kinda thing...And she doesn't like dating either for reasons I can relate to. She holds the belief that dating is awkward as you can never really think what to say, how to progress that sort of thing. We actually had a conversation earlier about our idea of a perfect date and my idea of the perfect date is the same as hers. Basically when I had the D-Tub we used to go on randoms and one night we got lost and we found a really dark country road with a brilliant view of the skies so we got out and took it to our advantage. Both of us were laid on the bonnet watching the stars and it was freakishly perfect timing on my part but it was back in the summer (seems so long ago!!!) at the height of the perseid meteor shower. We were out there from about 9pm and were still there at 4am the next morning cuddled up to each other watching the sky.

And that's our idea of a perfect date...But yes I can manage to set that moment again (body warmth is great!) but the problem being if per chance our eyes lock again how the f*ck do I move in the the kill when such advances spook her a bit?